Sunday, February 14, 2016
Block 3 Week 3: Since when can weathermen predict the weather, let alone the future?
So it's all the rage with blogs to have some kind of fancy naming scheme for blog titles. I've seen people use song names, movie names, rip-offs on Friends episode names, and all kinds of stuff. Since I'm a connoisseur of random obscure movie quotes, I'm going to start tossing little gems I've collected over the years up there in the title box. If you guess which movie, there's no prize, but you'll feel awful good about yourself for being so smart. If you google it, you'll get it, but you won't have such a deep feeling of satisfaction. But that's OK too.
So I was trying to sift through my brain for a good quote about the future, because that's what's been on my mind for the last few days. I know I've been on a bit of a depression bend lately, because I can only write about what's going on with me, but bear with me. There's a proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. What I've come to realize about depression is you have to keep something in front of you to look forward to. If you get so bogged down with the present state of crappiness, you can forget that life won't always look the way it does just now. That's why I like to inject small pleasures into everyday life so I don't get so under it. I mean, I do have the big "When I get out of medical school, I'll be a doctor and will achieve the pinnacle of all happiness" to look forward to, but sometimes that's just not a close enough target to keep the happy juices flowing. I've found that having some things to look forward to on a more consistent basis does help me stay ahead of the fog that can descend.
There are little things that I look forward to, like brunch on Sunday morning with my HB. We try to make it a habit every week to carve out some time and find the perfect brunch. This little town has some heavyweight contenders in that department, let me tell you. I also go to church every Sunday and catch up with my support system there. Some of you were at the White Coat Ceremony back in October and got a sample of my awesome cheering section. That's pretty much my church fam. I get a huge dose of get-up-on-Monday-and-make-stuff-happen from going to church every week. Another thing that I started a few months back is Birchbox. I have a subscription every month for me and the HB to get this cute little box with fun samples. His is really cool, because it includes some kind of cool extra thing like headphones or cool underwear or some really awesome socks. We've discovered some really great products, and even if it's not something we'd ever use, it's fun to give yourself a facial and slather on a hair mask on a Saturday night. I'm not trying to sell anyone on Birchbox, it's just an example of one of the things that I like to look forward to every month. You might find you'd like to join a Cheese of the Month Club or something like that. Wow, that actually sounds interesting, I might check into that...
I'm sure that if you are suffering from depression, a monthly sample subscription will not be enough to convince you to stick it out. If this is you, please get some help. Talk to someone about what you are going through. I have an appointment to talk to someone every week, and it has made a HUGE difference in how I feel. This is another thing that I have to look forward to. We sit for an hour and talk about the week and anything that is on my mind. Sometimes getting an outside perspective on things is just what I need. It's also really cool because she is an outside party that isn't affected by any decisions I choose to make, so she can be completely objective. I have to say our conversations are definitely something I look forward to every week.
So, The Future. It's this big looming thing that if you dwell on it too long, it can become overwhelming. I've gotten some good advice about that lately, and it's totally changed how I look at things. Just deal with what's on your plate, and don't borrow trouble from tomorrow. If what's on your plate is too big to swallow, try smaller bites. Still having trouble? Get help! Just knowing that there is a process in place to be able to deal makes it all a little easier I think.