Friday, May 6, 2016
Block 4 Week 1-3: You can DO it!
I haven't been very bloggy lately, sorry about that. We've finished the first three weeks of block 4 already, and I managed to fail an exam. I can't seem to get my head in the game right now, so I'm having these conversations with myself that are very stern. So far, it's not working. I think something cracked or broke, and I can't seem to find what it is and fix it so I can go forward and accomplish stuff. I just feel kinda numb and blah.
My study routine has gotten seriously interrupted over the last few weeks, and I should probably go back to that so I can feel normal. I have a place and a group that has worked for three blocks, and since John was sick and then we moved house, I've been afloat without that anchor. This block looks seriously overwhelming! We have lots of clinical stuff we are learning, and I'm not sure I can fit it all in with the regular study schedule, so over the last week or so, I've been doing a lot of nothing. That doesn't really work for medical school. I feel like I've let some bad habits creep in, and I don't have the motivation to turn it around. You'd think a failed exam would kick me in the butt. I just feel blah.
So I'm writing this blog to hopefully accomplish some kind of kick in the butt. We had an anatomy exam this morning, and we also have an anatomy practical coming up in just about an hour (for my group). I feel like I did get into a groove of studying for this exam, and I felt a lot better about how it went. Hopefully the practical will go as smoothly.
An update on HB: it's not over. It looks like there will be some surgery in the near future, so please continue praying and thinking of him if you don't mind. He's really tired of feeling poorly. I'm not anywhere near tired of trying to take care of him, though.
It looks like we've gotten into the groove of lather, rinse, repeat with study, exam, clinical stuff now that we are in block 4. I can't believe I have almost finished my first year of medical school! I am still loving it for the most part, as long as I keep my eyes on the goal and the way to get there without getting bogged down in the day to day weight of it. I guess that's why it is increasingly hard to find a good subject to blog about here. It's just the same thing over and over. Except life keeps cranking it out and making it a little more difficult than I'd like it to be. But I've learned that I can take care of myself, take care of hubby, and mostly manage to keep up with school. Let's see what curveball life has next! Until next time!